Hello fellow classmates :)
I just wanted to jump on here to vent some stress. I know we all are going through, have gone through it or will go through it at some point in our journey with coding. I am finally getting closer to the end of the program and am so glad and relieved. However, I find myself becoming more and more nervous at the thought of going "out there" on my own and actually coding on the job. I am completely exhausted because my husband is on disability for severe anxiety and I am the only one working. We have an almost 11-year-old and a 21 month old. I work third shift and average about 5 to 6 hours a night of sleep because I cannot sleep during the day. So, when the baby goes down for a nap I jump in and do 2 hours of school work unless he decides to nap for 45 minutes as he did today. I have a deadline Monday and still have so much to do. I've used all of my extensions due to husband having surgery and company dropping by unannounced, etc. I am always amazed at what we all can handle, but wow my nerves are shot. I work as an MT and sometimes I doze off in the middle of working. I am so ready to finish my studies, but I am lacking the confidence if I will truly know what to do once the job search is on.
Thank you for reading my rant. I just needed to vent for a few minutes :)
Paulette
Thinking of you tonight, Paulette. You have so much on your plate. I hope you will make it. I know you will. If you have been strong enough to get as far as you have through all of that, then you will make it. I dont think any employer will expect any of us to just jump in there and take over. Seems most employers are pretty good at training with any software and some orientation and work new employees in kind of slow. But who knows. I say, just dive in. Heck, we cannot kill anybody, right? I used to be a nurse when I was very very young and a man died in front of me while others stood around and were telling me to do CPR. I knew CPR, I had aced the class...but I froze, my whole brain and body froze. Couldnt move a muscle. I ended up getting out of nursing and became a legal secretary and kept telling myself in times of stress....heck at least I am not going to kill anybody. So codes are very very important, but if we do make a mistake I think most times it comes back to us to do over.....dont know....never been a coder. But just dive in. I will pray for you.
Lana,
Thank you so much for encouragement. I am so sorry that happened to you. There was a time I had thought of going into nursing and I decided against it because I don't work well under that kind of pressure. I commend you on even giving it a try and getting through school. You are right, I have made it this far and I'm going to keep getting on through. I just wish all of the stresses of "other" things would calm down just a little bit. When I first started the program about a week or so later we found out we were having our youngest baby. So, it's actually taken me longer than it probably should have to get through it. I get closer with every assignment, but it's just so hard to stay on task with so many distractions. I know we can ALL relate to that.
Thank you so much, again, Lana for sharing your experience and encouragement. It is very much appreciated.
Paulette
Hi Paulette,
I feel your pain. I am trying to get through Module IV right now while studying for the certification test they wanted us to take in Module III. I go back and forth and feel like my head is spinning. I too have a deadline next week and will be asking for another extension. I have two children 12 and 15, and I quit my medical transcription job to finish this course but I'm still overwhelmed. My brain does not process this stuff very easily, especially that Pathophysiology book. Oh my goodness. Hang in there. We can do this..
Michele
Hi Michele,
It's funny because this is so interesting to me, but like you, the pathophysiology gets to me too! :) We are so close and I know we can do it! Since you have a 12 and 15-year-old I know you have your hands full, too. Once we get this down, I feel confident we can handle ANYTHING. :) Thank you for posting your experience. It sure helps to know one is not alone.
Paulette
I totally understand Paulette. All through last year I felt confident and psyched up about my future in coding, but lately I've been plagued by doubts. I find myself wondering if this dream really will become reality, or if something in me will make me fail just as I reach the finish line...
I know, it's so gloomy but I think it's just a way of God or providence testing us, asking us if we can go the distance. My boyfriend has to take a lot of courses and tough certifications exams in his field (top-level IT stuff) and he says the midpoint of a course is the scariest part and the point when most people quit: because you're still too far away to see the end, and you can quit now without feeling like you've lost that much time--so the impulse to quit is powerful. He said if you can push through this, the rest is downhill. I try to keep this in mind whenever I feel my confidence flagging.
You do have a great deal on your plate, emotionally as well as physically; things that eat up your time and your emotional strength. You've done amazingly well to hold it together. Don't be shy about coming here to vent and get support--I do it all the time! It helps to not feel alone...
Carmel, Thank you so much for such an encouraging post. I really do appreciate it. I have told my husband and myself this many times through the last weeks, that I feel God brought me to this venture in my life and he brought me down this road for a purpose. I think we will do just fine, Carmel. Your boyfriend is so right. Quitting is not an option for us, we CAN do this! :)
Thank you so much again,
Paulette